Do I suffer from having disabilities? The trendy answer is to say no, but I know deep in my heart I have suffered greatly from my disabilities. The psychic and emotional pain, the falls, the trips to the hospital, the days spent in ICU all speak to my suffering. The heavy side effects of my medications also speak to my suffering. So much of my life is outside my control. I have no idea when my next seizure will be. I have no idea which part of my body will wear out next, so I feel humbled, certainly not Michelaganeo’s David. Accordingly, I can only be me, but I live with scars on my heart that run deep.